Scrap Therapy & My challenge Entry

So...last week, I was dealing with some really negative emotions to some people in my life, and I couldn't figure out a way to get rid of them without totally going off on the people I was upset with.  I was also dealing with the sadness of losing my FIL....so....I decided to try scrap therapy.  I loved it!!!!  I took a plain white 12 X 12 piece of cardstock and I journalled all of my feelings, thoughts, emotions onto it, around and around and around.  Then, I took that white piece of cardboard and I inked it and inked it some more, distressed it, tore it, painted it....just messed it alllll up!!!!  I wanted everyone to be able to see my thoughts and feelings (you can still read bits and pieces, but nothing telling), but not to be able to know them.  Then I took a pic of me, ripped it (so much fun...lol) and stitched it back together.  I used the new BoBunny lines of papers mama-razzi, because I just love them!!!  I put some border punched pieces of CS behind my tears and rips. 

The title letters and the mat for them, I cut on my sil...love that machine.  I made the bling myself, which you can see in an earlier post or visit my etsy shop.  The chipboard hearts and "me" I painted with navy blue and linen paint, the cheap stuff found at Walmart.  I sanded the "me" after painting it.  Then, I added some flowers and roses.

This LO shows what I feel like inside.  There are some rough edges and some rips and tears, but I try as best I can to put myself back together and fill the gaps and holes with as much positive stuff as I can.  The flowers and hearts represent the fact that I try to be kind, I try to be giving and honest. 

I also was able to finish my layout last night for the numbers challenge by Estee over at Scrapbook.com.  I wanted a unique idea rather than a birthday or a school grade.  I was happy with my idea.  This is my sweet little boy, Elias.  He is 1 1/2 here and was copying things Paul was doing when he was remodeling our bathroom.  Paper is by K & Company Hopscotch collection - boy. The ruler, title letters, and bolts I cut on my sil. The title letters I embossed with zing metallic copper. The bolts I embossed with zing metallic pewter. The ruler is inked with Antique Linen and a darker brown piece of paper behind it. The clock is a stamp on transparency embossed with Zing black. The two journal blocks were made in Microsoft Word. The tool diecuts I've had forever and a day...lol.